Love life

Assalamualaikum & Hye! =)

Ramai orang pasti pernah bercinta kan? Apalagi anak - anak muda zaman sekarang. Semua ada  rasa ingin mencintai dan dicintai. (Sila muntah kerana mood penulisan sekarang adalah mood serious maka ayat - ayatnya memang agak begini). Biar perasaan sayang dan suka terhadap pasangan masing - masing itu digelar atas nama yang sama iaitu cinta, tapi setiap orang mengekspresikannya dalam cara yang berbeza. Ada yang romantik, ada yang manja dan lain - lain lagi. Memandangkan sekarang zaman dah advance, semua nak pakai teknologi. Ada facebookla, twitterla, blogla. Jadi semua media - media ini biasanya tidak terlepas dari menjadi medium untuk mereka mengekspresikan cinta mereka. Itu bermakna, walaupun yang bercinta itu cuma mereka berdua, tapi mereka sebenarnya ingin seluruh dunia tau!

1) Upload gambar dekat facebook
2) Tulis dekat blog
3) Buat video cinta dekat youtube

Mungkin adala yang akan cakap, "Eh, penulis blog ni. Macam tak sedar diri pulak dia pon ada je buat macam tu." Kn?Kn? Aha..Itula saya cakap tadi. Masing - masing ada cara masing - masing untuk mengekspresikan cinta mereka. Biar saya pernah melakukan yang pertama dan kedua tapi tidak mungkin yang ketiga, saya masih punyai batas saya. Iaitu tidak akan pernah meletakkan gambar berduaan yang terlalu intimate (memang tak penah ada gambar macam ni pn. Even selfcam pon tak penah tau. Atas sebab tidak mau fitnah timbul dan menjaga nama baik keluarga masing - masing. Ye la, jangan ingat anak muda je ada fb, mak ayah, pak cik mak cik dan adik - beradik lain pun ada. Paling - paling pun gambar macam ni je..

Menyampah?Sweet?Masing - masing ada hak masing - masing untuk menilai.

Mengenai entry - entry diblog, biasanya saya cuma menyelitkan sedikit saja dihujung entry. Kalau kadang - kadang tengah taip - taip tu merindu, terrrrrrrrrrtulis jugak. =P And saya tau kerana dia pembaca blog saya yang setia, dia akan excited everytime i wrote about him.  So, i think it is not wrong to make someone you love happy in a proper way =)

Itu mengenai saya. Kalau orang lain? Ada yang letak gambar berkepit, berpegangan tangan mungkin, merenung tajam mata satu sama lain.. Itu hak masing - masing. Cuma, kalau saya personally saya rasa mual dan loya tekak. Walaupun mata yang melihat tapi tekak yang memberi reaksi. In my opinion semua itu tidak perlu. Tapi, ye la back to "everyone has their own rights to do what they feel they want to do". No offence.he
Sama jugak diblog, hampir disetiap entry "hari ini saya happy sebab dia blablabalalalalala" It would be more interesting if sometimes you have somethingelse to talk about ok? Get a life!. Pada yang terasa mungkin jawapan tipikal adalah "Siapa suruh ko baca blog aku?" and jawapan balik tipikal yang saya boleh bagi "Siapa suruh ko post?Mestila untuk orang baca kan?haha" =P

Mengulas mengenai video di youtube, pernah baru - baru ini ada tersebar satu video dari kekasih untuk kekasih. Semua orang duk kutuk kata macam - macam dekat pompuan tu. Saya bukan nak menyokong atau apa, tapi kita tau ke situasi sebenar? Entah orang lain yang pedajalkan dia ke? Eleh..Korang tu pun entah - entah penah cakap camtu dekat pasangan masing - masing. Ye tak? Cuma tak penah dipublickan je. Jadi pandai - pandaila fikir kebaikan dan keburukan mempublickan relationship masing - masing. Tapi, kalau yang macam ni bagus. Sweet sangat~ True love =') Pada kamu, sila tonton ye. This is something positive =)

=)

A story

Married or not you should read this...


“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

p/s: Everyone can have their own opinion on this story. Its just feel right to share.

Negative Charges!

Salam and hi!
This time saya pakai aku.
Sekarang musim hujan di Makassar. Musim - musim macam ni orang memang senang sakit. Especially aku. Baru seminggu lebih duduk sini dah demam. And bila mengadu dekat kawan - kawan, respon yang tak berapa best adalah, "aik,doktor pun boleh sakit?". Dear friends, doktor bukan manusia ke? =.=' Aku rase mase amik exam entrance untuk medic ni tade pulak rules yang menyatakan "anda harus kebal dari semua penyakit dan anda tidak boleh sakit!" There are no such rules ok? huhu..

Semalam tersangatla hectic!! Kesana kemari mengejar doktor. One lesson i learned yesterday was, jangan pernah takut untuk mencuba nasib. Maksud mencuba nasib disini adalah bila sesuatu come up, and there is no definite answer for it, you just have to gamble. It is a part of usaha jugak kan? Example to what just happened to me yesterday. Aku perlu cari seorang doktor specialist ni untuk dapatkan tandatangan dia membenarkan aku ikut clinical skill lab. Aku ada masa dalam 2jam sebelum lab tu start. Mula - mula buntu. Ye la,a doctor is not a person who is easily to find their current location ok. They rarely answer their phones,they dont wear tracking devices. Stress la jugak. Tapi nak stress - stress terus apa pun tak jadi kan? So, i just gamble. Main belasah je pegi satu hospital ni and walla! There he is. Walaupun before that ada sorang doctor ni bagitau yang dia ada dekat satu hospital lain yang lebih jauh. Sometimes, tak salah kalau kita ikut instinct sendiri. Usaha dan tawakal Allah pasti akan bagi sesuatu ganjaran. Cuma cepat atau lambat itu kita takkan penah tau. Yang penting kena belajar sabar. =)

Bercakap pasal sabar, aku banyak belajar nilai ini dari seseorang. Aku susah nak bersabar especially bila dah ada satu negative charge yang dah start melekat kat badan ni. Nanti semua perkara yang ada positive charges pun bertukar jadi negative. Biar macam mana aku buat perangai yang tak munasabah penyebab dan pemulaannya, seseorang itu terus menjaga aku dengan baik. Ketuk pintu bilik pagi - pagi just nak bagi his sweater as a "medicine" for my fever. Sweet right?hehehe ;) The best part is, i can smell his scent for the whole day! I'm really feeling better now. Thank you =)

owww man!my eyes looks bad.really bad.still ok for a sick person heh?

Rojak!

Assalamualaikum & Hi!
As everyone know, rojak adalah sejenis makanan yang terdapat di Malaysia yang terdiri dari campuran sayuran,telur,kuih dan kuah kacang. Walaubagaimanapun, post kali ini bukanlah untuk menceritakan tentang cara - cara membuat rojak mahupun menceritakan tentang keenakan rojak tersebut. Rojak pada title diatas merujuk kepada content post ini yang agak bercampur - baur kisah - kisahnya dek kerana terlampau lama sudah tidak mengupdate blog.hehe. =P

Firstly, masih ingat atau pernah baca post ini? Kalau belum, boleh baca dulu.. So, basically this is what i got for my birthday. Pssst! yang dah 2bulan lebih berlalu.hehe.

1) Sony Ericsson Mp3 player
2) Sony Ericsson Xperia Mini Pro (salah satu dari dalam list) Ehem.matchingla dgn dia yg pakai Xperia X10.he.Beza size je =P
3) Samsung series3 12.6" laptop (my favourite)

Alhamdulillah, syukur..Trima kasih buat mama,abah dan kamu =) saya sangat sukekan ketiga2nya =)

Secondly, my holiday in malaysia was awesome! Sangat banyak aktiviti bersama keluarga. Sampai - sampai dah join family trip kt desaru. Lepas tu stay dekat rumah auntie in jb, round - round jb especially dekat danga bay. It was really fun! Tu tak kira brapa kali entah pegi shopping. Tak lupa juga mandi - manda dekat super awesome air terjun which is sg.tekala. Again,with family.

And thirdly, kesibukan membataskan masa dia dan saya. Sejak masuk klinikal,terpaksala share mase satu hari dengan kesibukan dia jgk. Benda ni memang kedengaran tidak penting tapi....Nak jgk tulis!Hahahaha..

Kamu adalah doktor muda yg hensem! =)

UPSR tak dapat 5A? It's ok...

Assalamualaikum & hye! =)
Hari ini aku guna saya

Seperti yang sume dah tau, hari ni result UPSR dah keluar. Dan kebanyakan status dekat fb pun sebok mention adik - adik and anak - anak sedara yang dapat 5A. "Congratulations my dear sister, i'm proud of you!" kebanyakannya macam tu la. Tapi...Mesti tak semua student yang amik UPSR tu dapat 5A kn? Tapi kenapa takde pun update status to congratulate those yang tak dapat 5A? Sebab malu atau apa? Now you tell me. For me, UPSR is just the beginning. Ia tak menentukan sangat pun masa depan adik - adik ni. Sebab you still got PMR & SPM yang barulah agak menentukan jalur masa depan adik - adik ni.

Saya bercakap berdasarkan pengalaman. Dan jugak pemerhatian. Tak semua  yang dapat 5A waktu UPSR, PMR & SPM dorang excellent. Macam tu jugak bila dah masuk universiti. Memang ada yang dari awal dah cemerlang. Baguslah. Dah rezeki dia. My point is, for those yang tak dapat 5A untuk UPSR janganlah down - down sangat, tak perlula nak kecewa - kecewa. Sebab peluang anda masih banyak di depan. Macam tu jugak parents and siblings yang sepatutnya bagi support dan jangan memandang rendah adik - adik ni tau. Mungkin rezeki mereka untuk cemerlang seperti si cemerlang yang lain belum sampai.

Tak payah pandang orang lainla. Saya ambil saya sendiri sebagai contoh. Saya adalah pelajar biasa - biasa saja waktu sekolah. UPSR 4A,1B. PMR 5A 3B 1C, SPM pun 5A saja. Tapi itu tak bermakna masa depan saya gelap. Dengan keputusan yang tak seberapa itu saya pun diterima masuk di UiTM dalam bidang diploma sains (biologi). Dan ternyata zaman diploma sayalah zaman kecemerlangan saya. Rezeki saya lebih waktu itu.Sepanjang 6semester, 5semester saya tersenarai sebagai penerima anugerah dekan dan 2semester daripadanya saya memperoleh GPA 4.00. Setaraf, bahkan lebih baik dari pelajar - pelajar lepasan SBP dan sekolah - sekolah berprestij lain. Maklumla, saya sekolah biasa - biasa je. Bukan hendak membangga diri atau mendabik dada sekadar berkongsi pengalaman dan menyampaikan mesej yang peluang untuk kita memperbaiki diri untuk menjadi yang lebih baik itu sentiasa ada. InsyaAllah..

Alhamdulillah saya sudah grad diploma 4tahun yang lalu dengan 2bintang kerana cgpa >3.5

Tak kesampaian untuk dapat 3bintang sebab semester1 tak dapat dean list. Jadi melepas Anugerah Naib Canselor (ANC)

Waktu disemester akhir diploma masih dalam dilema nak sambung dalam bidang apa? Dari kecik saya memang nak sangat jadi doktor. Mula - mula saya dah kuburkan niat tu bila tengok keputusan SPM tak sehebat bakal seorang doktor. Tapi bila tengok prestasi sendiri waktu diploma, impian tu bercambah kembali. Tapi, bila dah semester akhir diploma, impian tu seolah dicantas semula bila berhadapan dengan realiti yang demand syarat untuk masuk fakulti perubatan di Malaysia sangatla tinggi. Oleh kerana Keputusan semester 1 saya yang kurang sedikit dari dean list, seakan menyebabkan saya tak dapat meneruskan cita - cita saya. Tapi saya masih buka hati ini untuk option yang lain. Ye lah,mungkin dah takde rezeki. Nak buat macam mana..

Dan akhirnya ditawarkan sambung degree in Forensics dekat UiTM. Sebulan pegi kelas tak minat. Bosan. Nak dipendekkan cerita ada tawaran belajar ke Indonesia dalam bidang perubatan untuk student yang dapat cgpa >3.5 dalam diploma sains and mikrobiologi. Saya ikut klas, amik exam and dapat! Akhirnya, berjaya jugak saya menyambung pengajian dalam bidang yang saya impikan selama ni. Dan sekarang saya berada di sini, belajar ilmu perubatan bersama teman - teman yang di waktu sekolahnya cemerlang, straight A student. See..Biar pun UPSR saya dulu 4A1B je,sekarang saya dah setaraf pun dengan mereka - mereka yang 5A. 

Jadi, buat adik - adik yang tak dapat 5A sekarang, jangan berputus asa. Teruskan usaha, insyaAllah ada yang lebih baik didepan. Buat parents, siblings and family, teruskan menyokong mereka. InsyaAllah satu hari nanti mereka akan berjaya.

Last but not least, to my bf sister, Anis Sofea binti Azman, congratulations for getting 4A's for your UPSR. Teruskan usaha itu. Kami bangga dengan kamu! =)

p/s:dah suruh dia baca post ni.tak taula budak ni tau ke tak nak bukak blog.huhu ;)

Cinta: Apa yang aku harap

Assalamualaikum & hye! =)
Bila cakap pasal cinta, suma mesti terbayang yang jiwang - jiwang. Tengok sunset tepi pantai dengan pasangan..Contohnya. Itu mungkin pemikiran aku jugak satu ketika dulu. Masa tak matang and tak tau pun motif bercinta ni sebenarnya. Tapi bila umur hampir 23tahun ni,takkanla tak reti-reti lagi nak sedar. Yang cinta ni sebenarnya tanggungjawab dan bukan nak berjiwang - jiwang saje.

Kasih sayang pasangan dalam cite UP ni sgt buat aku terharu =')

Erm, love ni complicated. Takde guideline khusus atau cara - cara bercinta yang sebenarnya. Sebab cinta terhasil antara dua manusia. Dan pengalaman dua manusia ini tidak sama dengan yang bakal dirasai dunia manusia itu. Sebab itu aku cakap takde guideline khusus untuk bercinta.

Erm..Aku tak harap banyak dalam cinta ni. Cukupla...


Lelaki yang bersama dengan aku sekarang dan selamanya dapat terima aku seadanya. Aku yang kepala angin, serious dan super duper degil.

Aku harap lelaki itu dapat terima aku yang bukan berbadan macam model. Hanyalah perempuan biasa dengan tinggi 157 cm. Berat badan yang tak menentu antara 45kg boleh mencapai 51kg. Currently 44kg.

Aku harap lelaki itu sanggup jaga aku waktu aku sakit. Aku memang selalu sakit. Demamla,pengsanla, tekanan darah rendahla, fibroadenomla, sakit kepala, sakit belakang.

Aku harap bila aku sedih, bahu dia sentiasa ada untuk aku menangis, untuk tumbuk - tumbuk bila aku bengan dengan orang lain.

Aku harap dapat dengar I LOVE U tiap - tiap hari. Dalam sms pun.he

Aku harap dia selalu imamkan solat aku. Biarpun bukan tiap waktu. (Sejak pindah kelas baru dah lama tak diimamkan solat dengan dia.rindu =') )

Aku harap dia jadi bestfriend forever aku

Senang cite aku nak mcm ni..

Sayang menyayangi sampai akhir usia =')

InsyaAllah..